I'm good in keeping secret
and I don't share my nor anyone's deepest secret on my blog

tapi rahasia yang satu ini terlalu susah untuk tidak saya share

aduh,
rasanya nggak sanggup untuk nyimpen yang ini

aduh,
rasanya ingin membekap mulut saya erat2

tolooooooooonnnnnnnngg !!!

adhekfa wrote today at 9:13 AM

kirain uni ga pernah ngerasa sedih...
habis kayaknya hidupnya sempurna banget...
hiks...

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this is a very interesting respond on my previous blog

yang bilang begini ke gue berarti teman baru

karena kalo temen2 yang udah mengikuti blog gue dari tahun 1817,

they all know that I’ve been through a hell outta ups and downs

I bet everybody deals with the same life I live in

kadang seneng,

kadang bahagia meluap2,

kadang jatuh cinta,

kadang dapat rejeki tak terduga,

tapi kadang hidupnya juga berantakan

kadang sedih,

kadang marah,

Kadang putus asa,

kadang sial,

bedanya,

gue extrovert

I choose to write on my blog how I feel, what I’d been through

coz somehow

even if it doesn’t solve the problem

writing making me feel much2 better

lagipula,

I'm not writing for anyone,

I'm writing for myself,

to captures the milesstones of my life journey

also as a lesson learnt in life

when I’d look back and smile to know

that I’d passed my difficult & hard times

as much as having the greatest times of my life

apalagi yang baca blog itu kan

isi kepalanya macem2 yah

jadi suka geli sendiri ngebaca tanggapan yang berbeda2

biarpun kadang nggak ada waktu buat nge reply nya

so you see my dear,

hidup gue jauuuuuuuh dari sempurna

it’s not even closer to A+

but you know what ???

I’m enjoying every second of it :-))

*Jakarta, 28 November 2007*

abis baca tulisan salah satu contact gue, very interesting ;-)
(link diatas di klik dulu kali doooonnn...
heran deh suka nanya2 yg nggak penting ;-P)

'coz I scared myself to death
that's why I keep on running
don't you see where I'm going ???

no, no, no
I'm not too fast
just too sad

let me go...
you just have to let me go

but I'll be around,
'coz I'm half a woman,
half a shadow

*Jakarta, 21 August 2007*
it's just another sad love song
rockin' my brain
like crazy
and I'm all torn out

…is to deal with it.
full stop.

*missing you much too, my partner in crime ;-((*

...no wonder dari dulu pacar2 gue selalu nyentrik2,
seniman itu ternyata emang bener2 bisa bikin gue
terpesona, jatuh, luluh, meleleh, dan melebur dengan alam semesta

thanks to antonio blanco,
sekarang gue bisa kembali bermimpi punya pacar lagi

*ubud, august 2007*
eeerrr, tanggal berapa sih sekarang ? udah lupa waktu nih disini...

barusan gue liat timesheet, daily absence

wow,

tau2 udah tanggal 1 Agustus 2007 aja

hmmmm,

bulan Agustus ya ???

gue sempet termenung waktu ngopi2 barusan…

how time flies like a blink

very fast indeed

bulan agustus ya ?

hmmmm, ya ya ya

gue langsung teringat temen2 deket gue,

• ada yang ulang tahun di bulan Agustus ini
• ada yang merayakan anniversary di bulan Agustus ini
• ada yang akan menikah di bulan Agustus ini
• ada yang akan divorce di bulan Agustus ini
• ada yang baru putus cinta di bulan Agustus ini
• ada yang di bikin gantung cintanya di bulan Agustus ini
• ada yang baru jatuh cinta di bulan Agustus ini
• ada yang baru ketemuan & reunian dengan sahabat di bulan Agustus ini

hmmm,

bulan Agustus yang penuh makna dan penuh warna

despite the thought of whatever's gonna happen in August,

may all the good things come

and may our life fullfilled with love, joy, health & happiness - once again

amiiiiieen

Okay August,

I’m ready for anything !!!

*Jakarta, 1 August 2007*

and every possible beauty treatment available 
over a period of time,

for free...

take look at them,
before and after makeovers & beauty treatment

OH MY GOD DOT COM !!!

lieve Ari,

ik weet dat ik al lang niet jij gescrijft,

daroom zal ik die brief voor jouw graag vertellen !!!

can't hardy wait to see you soon !!!

anyway,

setelah kecapean ngumpul2 jum’at malem plus seharian rafting hari sabtu kemaren (cerita jum'at malem & rafting sabtunya besok aja yah ri, masih males2an nih gue), gue nyampe rumah selepas midnite dan tidur sampe hari minggu ini kebangun jam 11.30, rumah gue ternyata kosong dan sepiiiiiii banget!. Pada kemana yah orang2? semua orang dan semua mobil nggak ada, sampe2 anjing tetangga yang biasa nongkrong didepan rumah gue juga lenyap.

Secara gue masih jetlag dari Sukabumi kemaren, gue bangun cuman buat cari nasi. Gue ke ruang makan, ternyata nyokap udah masak ikan peda balado, sayur asem komplit dengan tahu tempe dan sambel terasi. (ai lap yu dah mak!) Biarin deh nggak ada orang, yg penting ada makanan. Setelah kenyang, gue telp mbak sumi, dan satu jam kemudian mbak sumi datang untuk mijet selama dua setengah jam aja loh, saking enaknya itu pijetan, gue sampe ketiduran lagi, dan bangun2, mbak sumi udah pulang, nyokap bokap udah pulang, dan ternyata udah jam 5 sore lagi! Gilingan (kenapa yah belakangan ini gue suka ngomong gilingan?), enak banget tidur gue hari ini.

Selesai mandi dan bersih2in badan sebersih2nya (secara kemaren pake acara nyebur di kali Citarik yah bow), mendadak gue pengeeeeeen banget makan bakso. Dan karena jam nya jam tanggung, gue males ngajakin temen2 gue, karena jam2 segitu, kecuali gue (yg tadinya mo ke bandung-tasikmalaya tapi batal) pasti mereka udah punya acara sendiri, kalopun pada bisa, pasti gue harus nungguin mereka dandan, as if we’re going to the mall. Padahal gue lagi pengen banget makan bakso pinggiran yang rasanya khas a la kampung (you know, yang kuahnya berkaldu, banyak tetelan nya, dengan mie kuning & bihun khas gerobak ituuu ???)

Ya udah gue niat2in diri & memaksa badan gue yg manja ini keluar rumah nyari taksi. Tapi gue pikir2 lagi, gaya banget sih, mau makan bakso pinggir jalan aja pake naek taksi segala, akhirnya tanpa mikir panjang gue nyetop angkot. Pada saat itu asli gue nggak tau mau kemana, yang jelas gue naek angkot yg kearah Pondok Labu. Secara otak gue blom bisa mikir karena kecapean dan kebanyakan tidur, so yg pertama nyangkut di kepala gue adalah bakso di wiwit Fatmawati (iya, yg deket kos loe Pri, hihi). Tapi gue males kesana, selain baksonya rasanya std bgt, pasti lagi rame banget disana. Sedangkan gue lagi nggak dress up banget. Gue cuman pake celana pendek & baju tidur bali kesayangan gue (yang ada gambar bamboo nya itu looh), TANPA make up dan bersendal jepit ria. Dan gue lagi dalam keadaan males basa basi sama orang.

Trus akhirnya gue inget, ada satu warung bakso di deket POIN Square, di sebelah warteg & bengkel motor. Perfecto ! Langsung aja gue turun dari angkot itu dan nyetop angkot lain, balik arah ke Lebak Bulus lagi, dan turun persis di depan warung bakso pinggir jalan setelah belokan Lebak Lestari itu.

Begitu turun gue bengong. Karena di warung bakso itu SUMPAH MATI penuh banget sama kuli2 bangunan yang lagi ngebakso! Gue serba salah, mau pergi tapi risih karena udah terlanjur berdiri didepan pintu warungnya dengan muka mupeng karena ngiler sama wangi bakso & kepulan asepnya, tapi kalo makan disana kok kayaknya males banget, secara tempatnya ternyata nggak begitu besar, panas banget dan sumpek dengan mas2 kuli bangunan yang kumel dan baru pada pulang kerja tersebut. Tapi untung ada ibu2 berjilbab yang juga lagi makan bakso dengan anaknya yang masih TK, dan merasa ada temen, gue langsung duduk diantara mereka dan mesen bakso.

Selama menunggu, gue di interogasi sama mereka.

-         mbak, mbak bukan dari sini yah, kok tumben baru kali ini liat

-         mbak, ada keturunan bule nya yah ?

-         mbak, abis dari mana ? mau kemana ?

-         mbak kok sendirian ?

awalnya gue terganggu ditanyain begitu, tapi begitu gue liat tampang2 mereka yg excited kayak nggak pernah liat perempuan cakep dan dengan polosnya nanya2 pertanyaan yg norak, gue nyengir2 sendiri dan akhirnya gue berasa kayak artis yang lagi menghibur rakyat, hihi.

Anyway Ri, akhirnya bisa juga gue makan bakso dan sampe sekarang gue posting cerita nggak penting ini,, gue masih merasa puas banget karena gue bisa makan bakso kampong yang gue mau, dan yang lebih penting sebenernya adalah,

life is good when you get what you want !

yeap,

promise to write you more,

nevertheless,

that's all for now

nite nite, soul sista !!!

*miss you like hell*

doesn't mean anything
doesn't make any difference

all I know
today is like ordinary day

but one thing for sure,
I'm still missing you
so much

Welcome to the era of ...

COMMUNICATIONS WITHOUT LIMITS!!

   …rrring   

Hello Bob? Did you review the contract I sent you?

... So it’s finished?  You’ll send it to me by e-mail?

My e-mail address?  Frankly, I don’t remember it !!!

Just a minute, let me check.

NICOOOLE, ...

WHAT’S MY E-MAIL ADDRESS?

No, no, that’s my home e-mail address!

Listen, I can’t find it.

Let me check and call you back.

Oh!... You’re going for lunch soon ???...

OK, I’ll send you the address by fax.

You’ll have it when you get back. OK?

 OK. So give me your fax number.

What! You don’t know it?

OK, here’s what we’ll do.

You e-mail me your fax number and I’ll fax you my e-mail address.

No, that won’t work.

Wait, I’m getting mixed up...

Let me think...

What’s your cell-phone number? 

Oh, your battery is dead ... Mine too...

OK, listen, here’s what we’ll do...

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You charge your cell-phone battery,
I’ll call you in a couple of hours
and leave you my e-mail address in your voice mail.

Then you take my e-mail address in your voice mail and you

e-mail me your fax number.

Then I can fax you my e-mail address.

That’s plan A. Now for plan B!

I send myself an e-mail to see what my e-mail address is

 and then I record a message for you in my voice mail....

…when you get it, you send me the answer on my pager...

 …so then, I send you a fax with my e-mail address.

Complicated?

No, it’s not at all complicated.

 We just need a bit of coordination... and luck...

There’s also a third possibility that’s much simpler: plan C...

You send me the contract directly by express messenger.

 Yeah!... It’s the best plan strategically speaking...

But actually, I have a small question...

…what was I supposed to send you by e-mail?

My e-mail address, my fax number, my cell number,

pager, telephone?

Oh! You don’t remember either.

It would probably be a good idea to have periodic bilateral coordination meetings concerning protocols for internal communications.

But anyway, since your office is at the other end of the corridor, I’ll come by to pick it up in 2 minutes...  OK? Bye!

And moral of the story is :

Thanks to technology, we can now waste time with an efficiency

until now unimaginable, all in the name of saving time…

A man went to a barber shop

to have his hair and his beard cut as always.

He started to have a good conversation

with the barber who attended him.

They talked about so many things and various subjects.

Suddenly, they touched the subject of God.

The barber said

"Look man, I don't believe that God exists as you say so."

"Why do you say that?"

Asked the client.

" Well, it's so easy, you just have to go out in the street

to realize that God doesn't exist.

if God existed, would there be so many sick people?

Would there be abandoned children?

If God existed, there would be no suffering nor pain.

I can't think of a God who permits all of these things."

The client stopped for a moment thinking

but he didn't to respond so as to prevent an argument.

The barber finished his job and the client went out of the shop.

Just after he left the barber shop

he saw a man in the street with a long hair and beard

(it seems that it had been a long time

since he had his cut and he looked so untidy)

Then the client again entered the barber shop

and he said to the barber:

"you know what? Barbers don't exist."

"how come they don't exist?

Well i'm here and i'm a barber"

"No, they don't exist

because if they did

there would be no people with long hair and beard

like that man who walks in the street." The client exclaimed.

"Ah, barbers do exist,

what happens is

people don't come to me"

"Exactly!!" Affirmed the client.

"That's exactly the point.

God does exist,

what happens is

people don't go to Him

and don't look for Him,

that's why there's so much pain and suffering in the world"

so there

A newlywed couple had only been married for two weeks.
The husband, although very much in love,
couldn't wait to go out on the town
and party with his old buddies.
So, he said to his new wife, "Honey, I'll be right back."

"Where are you going, coochy cooh?" asked the wife.

"I'm going to the bar, pretty face. I' m going to have a beer."

The wife said, "You want a beer, my love?"
She opened the door to the refrigerator
and showed him 25 different kinds of beer,
brands from 12 different countries:
Germany, Holland, Japan, India, etc.

The husband didn't know what to do,
and the only thing that he could think of saying was,
 "Yes, lolly pop...but at the bar...you know...
they have frozen glasses..."

He didn't get to finish the sentence,
because the wife  interrupted him  by saying,

"You want a frozen glass, puppy face?"
She took a huge beer mug out of the freezer,
 so frozen that she was getting chills just holding it.

The husband, looking a bit pale, said,
"Yes, tootsie roll, but at the Bar,
they have those hors d'oeuvres that are really delicious...
I won't be long, I'll be right back. I promise. OK?"

You want hors d'oeuvres, poochi pooh?"
She opened the oven and took out 5 dishes
of different hors d'oeuvres:
chicken wings, pigs in blankets, mushroom caps, pork strips, etc.

"But my sweet honey...
at the bar... you know...
there's swearing, dirty words and all that..."

"You want dirty words, D*ckhead?
Drink your f*cking beer
 in your Goddamn frozen mug
and eat your motherf*cking snacks,
because you are Married now,
and you aren't f*cking going anywhere!
Got it, A*shole?"

...and, they lived happily ever after...

Isn't that a sweet story , anyone ???

A second ago,

I was just reading an email from a nice friend,

who lost herself, out of planet…

and it hits me…

I know what is it like,

to feel hurt & empty,

*been there before*

faling apart,

like a broken glass...

all you wanna do,

is to scream oud loud,

bang your head,

dissappear,

vanished…

but my dear friend,

like they said,

time heals,

and it sure does…

there’s nothing you can do

but moving on...

and  if you can’t fix that broken glass,
get a new one,

In the meantime,
should you need someone to talk to,

you know where to find me...

Jakarta, 12 Feb 2007

“Dee, gue cuma mau ngabarin,
adik Rani baru saja meninggal, kecelakaan motor.

upacara Ngaben nya besok…
mohon dimaafkan kesalahan2 nya yah…”
Gede telp gue tadi malem dengan suara serak.

Gue lemes.

Padahal gue baru aja telp2an sama Rani dua hari yang lalu,
karena dia baru aja kirim CV,
baru lulus kuliah & berencana mau kerja di Jakarta.